Missing love so much right now when he's fast asleep. After a day of long work he finally slept at 5+ and even skyped with me before bed though he has to wake up at 8 for work. :') Been shopping these few days and whenever I come to an escalator, I always think of him because I always hesitate and he's not here to hold me onto it anymore.
And we used to catch every single movie out in the theatres without fail but now I don't even go to the movies here. Stars here are so prominent at night and there's so many beautiful places in UK and sometimes I really wish he's here to enjoy all these little things with me. Whenever we're at some pretty place back in KL, he'd always give me a twirl around like a fairy. :B
My last week in KL with him:
Half Korean? :P
Miss this soy bean paste soup!
One of those mornings
I miss this from Jojo :(
Fatty perut bulging out after so many dessert sessions :P
It's been such a long time that I actually celebrated a monthsary together with someone. First monthsary with Keven, exactly a week before I flew here to UK. Went back to KL on the same day from JB and just in time to have dinner with him. Made a card and a CD filled with my favourite soundtracks for him and he brought me to Porto Romano for dinner.
Dress from Zara donned with my favourite charm bracelet from Thomas Sabo
My love
Cheese platter that we didn't really enjoy :X
My lamb shank
His chicken breast
We've same taste for food and I actually wanted to order this chicken breast but I let him order it though he persuaded me to order it while he ordered something else. But knowing he loves chicken breast and don't fancy other meat much, I gave in to him. :)
Being suckers fore dessert, how can we not cleanse our palate with something sweet? Forgot what this was called but it was some frozen ice cream-like dessert with espresso drizzles. Yummyyyyy :B
Missing this silly jealous guy :(
Tonight I've been thinking a lot, sometimes I speak my mind without considering his feelings but he has never raised his voice at me before. I can be real petty just so he can coax me but I am never good at coaxing cause of my ego. Being 9000 or 6000+ miles away from him ain't easy and I don't know when's the next time I would see him.
Skype and whatsapp's our only communication portal and we've to deal with time differences. Been skyping with him while walking or when in the bus, while grocery shopping, in the midst of cooking, just so that I can hear his voice. Compromising to his busy schedule cause he has to work and I know once I don't put in effort to maintain communication, this thing between us will die. He actually woke up at 6am when it was around 11pm at my side just to check on me when I went drinking so that I'm sober and not cheating on him lololol.
On cold weathers like these, I wish you were here to keep me warm cause the heater's not warm enough for me. And the minute I step out of buildings, I'd be shivering.
Sometimes just looking at each other on that tiny screen brings tears to my eyes. Or the thought of him having to eat dinner alone or an unplanned weekend breaks my heart. Praying hard that we'll make this through and that he'll come visit me soon.
I know I haven't done much for you, especially cooking a proper meal for you. Pains me to have you bring that up and I can't fulfill your request right now.
Give me time, I'm trying to be the best you ever have.
If you're subscribed to my social updates or a friend of mine on Facebook, you'd know that I FINALLY met someone new after 5431239081409 years of being forever alone. This song's perfect as you read on. Enjoy! :)
Meet Keven.
This is one guy I never thought I'd fall for. We're so different being him chinese educated while I'm english educated. We have completely different interests as he loves dancing while I have two left feet. His humour was what got me intrigued and I felt really comfortable talking to him, without any qualms or reservations. It was as though we were really good friends though I barely knew him. The only one thing we have in common is us being suckers for desserts. Nahh I'm kidding, we have much more stuff in common that I can't think of right now.
I guess every first date's really important because it determines whether you'd wanna see that person again for the second date and so on. What moved me most on the first date was that we decided to watch a movie and knowing that he already watched Ice Age when I haven't, we settled on 'Salmon Fishing in the Yemen'. As we were entering the cinema that night, he said we were watching another movie instead. I looked at the ticket stub and it was Ice Age 4.
How sweet is that. Made my heart melted for a second and 5 points was awarded for his sweetness. :)
He makes me believe that chivalry isn't dead yet. Till now, he stills watch out every step of mine, making sure I don't step into a puddle while walking and stands behind me while on the escalator to make sure I don't fall. And I always hesitate whenever getting on an escalator and so he covers my eyes and holds me to get on the escalator without pausing.
It's those little things he does that makes me melt like calling me everyday when I finish work and before bed, holding his bladder so that I wouldn't have to stand outside the toilet alone, de-shelling prawns out of his own accord for me, and seeing me at 1am and talking by the poolside till 4am when I was down.
I'm a sucker for these kinda stuff. And whenever we visit pretty places like The Street in the Curve with lights, he holds my hand and makes me twirl around. I've never been so appreciated and loved before in my life. He's like an angel that was sent down from heaven to stop me from meeting those jerks like in the past who gave me empty promises or led me on.
With him, I'm never bored because he'd come up with the lamest jokes and sometimes when I don't know how to react to them, I just stare at him blankly and he'd crack up and change the topic. One crazy fella who made me walk around the fountain 3 rounds in front of the public just to live up to his dare. Tsk.
I'm a very melodramatic person and tear easily, but he's always been positive practically about everything and never fail to cheer me up. He even tells me what he likes about me and that was one hard situation that I held my tears of joy back.
After seeing him for a week, I decided to muster up my courage and tell him the truth about me leaving to UK next month. I know I was selfish for making him have feelings for me, only to stab him with the bitter truth. But I didn't want him to leave the minute he heard I was leaving. I brought him to Solaris with one of those amazing views of Duke highway and I blurted it out.
It should be 6th August 2012 instead. =.=
Instead of hurling or interrogating me, he asked why does it seem like a scene in one of those dramas. I bawled my eyes out, feeling so so bad about it and he wiped my tears away, comforted me and brought me all the way to see the Putrajaya bridge with changing lights.
I expected him to stop seeing me to save him from further heartbreak but no, he said that I was only going away for a year. He can't promise that we would be together forever because forever doesn't exist but he promised that he'd be there for me for my ups and downs.
It feels like God is playing games with me, as the people I meet were either leaving to overseas or attached and now when I meet someone, I'm leaving instead. A month back then, sis said: "One day before you leave, you're gonna meet someone you really love and then you'll be torn apart". Some pixie dust must have been sprinkled cause it really came true. FML those jinxed words from her.
Maybe some of you would think that this sweetness would only be temporary since we just started off but I believe that it takes two to tango and each party has to give in their all in a relationship, especially when it's a long distance one.
Brought him back to JB and he drove all the way back though it was really tiring for him. Thank you :)
20 days left and we're gonna be apart soon. Skype and whatsapp's gonna be our main communication and it's gonna kill us both badly not being able to see each other physically. As I am typing this, I can already feel my tears about to stream down. I really wished I had met you sooner and that I had more time to spend together with you.
I don't know what's gonna happen in the near future, whether we're still gonna be together and whether we can overcome the hurdles that we face especially the distance but I'm really grateful and thankful to have met you and for the first time in my life I'm being appreciated and you made me the happiest girl in the world though it has only been a short time.
