At least I did give it my all.

一開始沒人看好這段愛情

但是我總覺得不愛可惜

Inner thoughts #2

So yesterday someone asked me THE question again.


The question of whether I'm still single and the reason for it.


Damn. Haven't thought about it for quite sometime and work's been keeping me busy and I doze off almost immediately the minute I hit the pillows. Somehow it got me thinking all night long last night. Sad to say, I have been #foreveralone since ages. Well there was someone I used to call my own back then when I was still a fresh thorn. But we never really dated and it was a long distance thing so it wasn't really counted.

Then along the way, I met some people during college and Uni. Things started off pretty well at first; it always do. Then somehow you get comfortable with them, you think things are going on pretty well, and you've never felt happier in your life with his existence. Then one day he decides to go on a disappearing act or things start to fade away. You no longer receive messages from him or he replies you abruptly like 'Yes. No. K. Bye' from the usual ':))))))))), Hey!, Good night, Good morning, How's your day?'


And I can totally relate my last Mr. X with this story:

Brb, tearing in the office.







Lol jk.



And I'd keep thinking that it's my fault, I didn't do enough, or something's wrong with my appearance, physique blablabla.

Not like I'm obese or anything, just on the more voluptous side, I guess Asian men would prefer those stick thin girls instead. Now you'd know why my sisters are currently dating Caucasians. The people in my family aren't stick thin just so you know.

Maybe I'm destined to date a Caucasian too lololol. My parents would kill me.


Oh and that friend thinks I'm picky. Well I've tried accepting someone who's way out of my league but it didn't turn out well either. Seriously, you wouldn't wanna know how he's like. I don't hang other people's dirty linen in public so I better keep mum about it. I'll give you a comparison: like a healthy bowl of salad VS a bowl of fried calamari. ;)



I'm guessing that maybe God wants me to be single or maybe a right guy for me is somewhere in the future. :)

Random thoughts

Laying in bed and reluctant to sleep. Decided to give Blogger mobile a try hence this post.

Was on the way home, driving back from meeting the girls and random thoughts just popped up in my head.

I'm really conscious about how people think and perceive about me and especially when it's someone special. I always think of whether I'm being too childish for doing some kind of things, or whether I'm good enough for a special someone. No particular person I'm referring to, just my narrow concerns.

Or maybe it's just that confidence level that's as low as the seabed level. :/

Till another night of random thoughts.