Sanity

2.04am and I've been facing the laptop since 1.00pm working on my Corporate Finance assignment and Business Law slides. Didn't even step out of the house today. It's a Saturday night and I'm domesticated like a cat while sisters' are at a friend's pool party that I decided to give a miss. And decided to pass on Daniel's birthday bash at @live, Kl.

Exactly a week to Christmas and I didn't even do any Christmas shopping nor bought any presents for anyone yet. Too busy :X Got myself a moisturiser from Kiehl's for myself though. Mummy and the siblings are coming up on Thursday and dad on Saturday, for another cousin's wedding's on Christmas eve.

I've come to realise I'm too afraid of taking chances. There's a chance for me to plunge into love but I'm not taking that step. Perhaps I'm too scared, afraid of getting hurt once again. Then again, maybe it's because there isn't sparks between us both. Or he's showing too much interest that I'm put off by it.

I prefer that adrenaline rush, though I've been told, and experienced for myself they never last long. Been there done that! In a state of perplexed mind right now. I myself am confused. I know I've changed over these years, no longer that naive, good girl who's into good boys. In the end, boys will be boys. They're the same species and they'd disappoint you in some way eventually.

I'll just hope that I'd find someone like myself. That way, we'd click no matter what ;)