A game I never win

And so I came across this quote from someone, "Whoever loves more, loses". I find it perfectly true cause I've been there, done that. Whoever who puts in more into the relationship ends up being desperate for the other party. For me, I end up losing forever because I can never bear to put the other party through agony of waiting for my reply or that heart wrenching moment of rejection.

Maybe because I put myself in their shoes and act accordingly. As the saying goes, "Do unto others like how you would want others to do unto you". Or maybe it's I'm afraid of losing them. Either way, I suck at this. And that's why I'm #foreveralone.

Then again, it's contradicting how I find that the party that loves more actually doesn't really lose. At least he/she gets to experience the adrenaline rush of loving someone whole-heartedly, stopping at no means just to ensure that they get to keep them. Maybe I'm like that. Sure enough, they make you feel like you're on a rollercoaster ride. But then again, it makes the ride worthwhile.

Oh well, just my two cents. I'm not going to open up to anyone just yet anymore. I'm sick of this whole game, a game that I never get to win. Prioritizing my studies first and enjoy life with my family and peeps. I don't need someone who's going to make my mood go like the signal on a defibrillator.

Hammered and cracked.

Goodnight!