Disappointed much?

Applied for the JPA scholarship the day the SPM results were out, got selected for the interview, panicked, nearly missed my flight because of it, probably screwed up my interview, interviewers didn't have a look at my certificates, hence it probably lead to me not getting selected for it.


Had a gut feeling before this that I probably wouldn't get it. The probability of me getting among 10,000 over candidates is impossible. Somehow, dad was so sure and confident I'd get it. :S


The only thing I wanted was a chance to pursue my studies overseas. Oh well, the chance's gone now. Gonna be stuck here for another 3 years with everyone leaving me behind. Wasn't severely disappointed that I didn't get chosen probably due to the fact that I would have to study for a year at a government university before going overseas if I were to be chosen.


I think it probably disappoint my parents more than anything. Especially dad. Sorry dad, and mom. Straight A's is nothing. I'm not as brilliant as you think. It was pure luck. Getting selected for the interview was just a false glimmer of hope. Made up my mind not to go back to Jb this holiday, don't want to remind them of it when they see me. Maybe it doesn't affect them at all, maybe it does. Whatever.


Oh well, the path laid out for me is quite clear now. Imma give it my all for everything now. Mid semester exam's next monday. Only English paper. =.= But still, worried.



And to digress, why am I addicted to Justin Bieber? =.= Probably started off with my class gila-ing over 'Baby'. Baiiiiii.


We're better off as friends.